Wednesday, June 24, 2009

Many Happenings

Suzanne Yin is the MSSD Petaling Perdana Light Heavy gold medalist! Yes, she lazed off tons, but she still got the medal. :X

Yes indeed! It's quite a long story, but in a nutshell:

I am geared up and enter ring.
Referee: Yin Shu Hui? *waves a paper*
I nod.
Referee does hand gesture to the front.
Referee: Charyeot! Gyeongnye!
I bow.
Referee raises left hand towards me.
Referee: Hong Sheng!
Me: *mouth drop* (except that I can't exactly do that because I had my mouth guard on)

Awesomesauce. They must've heard my name I ran away when they realize my awesomeness. The sad thing about getting a free gold medal is it might seem as if you don't deserve it. I would love to spar with my enemy and win the gold medal, but it wasn't my fault that they didn't come for the match. Nevertheless, I got it.

Tons of other stuff have happened over the week, other than the Taekwondo MSSD. The next day was Majlis Perlantikan Pemimpin Muda! All our little probates turned green. On the same day, I am elected the Treasurer of Lembaga Pengawas Koperasi SMK USJ 13 Berhad.

Join the green side! We have buns!

And then, the camera batteries died. Meh. And my father talked so loudly to me in the morning about the batteries.

On the same day itself, another big event happened.

Suzanne Yin is out to waste off her weekend at another camp(not that the last camp was a waste though).

The much feared Kem Pemimpin Muda! I never wanted to attend it, especially when we have to pay for it. But then, we were forced to go, so meh. I didn't put much hope into this camp. I heaved my bag into school at 5pm. We started camp with some lame games. As the day progress, the little hope I had for the camp turn to nothing. My team was 300(THIS IS SPARTA!!!). Owh, have I mentioned we had 20 people in our team? The smartest thing the school can ever do is throw 175 students in the hands of Hikers Climbers for ONE SINGLE 3 days 2 nights camp. The facillitators were kinda rude, unexperienced in treating teens, and all-in-all, rather terrible. There's a big reason why they are called facillitators and not committees, they're just in it for the money. They do not require to make sure they have happy campers. This was probably because I've been to so many better organized camps(TDC!!!), but other people thought so too. I guess there is truth in what I say.

To kill time, they made us write some pointless stuff on mahjong paper. Even when we were presenting it, they cut us off quickly and rudely. They give little to no debriefing of their programs, making me feel as if what I was doing was pointless. And they yell for no apparant reasons. Then we had some speaker who, also yelled for no apparant reasons. I enjoyed the little activities though. But the funny thing was he ended the session with some reflection session, almost like a sharing of merits session. But man, the guy was yelling throughout the thing. I felt more disturbed. Then we had a program where we're blindfolded, an operasi buring hantu thingy. It was a kill joy when they ask us to take off our blindfold because there was not enough time for all of us to go through the path in the dark. And it was 2.30am. It was sooooooooo lame that they keep rushing us through the programs, and many things couldn't be completed. And yet, we are dismissed to sleep so late.

To make matters worst, the idiots around my tent just wouldn't shut up. I shared a tent with Siew Yen, Anthea and Nurul. Siew Yen was fast asleep while the people where still chatting away. I was lying still, eyes closed tight, melatonin kicking in, but yet it was soooo noisy for me to even nap. It was 3.30am, and the noise wouldn't stop, even after a very pissed off and zombified me went around shutting them up. Me, Anthea and Nurul migrated to the Ruang Legar to sleep. I don't mind sleeping in my tent but at least it was quiet there. And windy. And crowded. And cozy.

And it was only Day 1.

I concluded sooooooo many things about the evil facillitators in just 7 hours. It continued on till Day 3. At least Day 2 was more eventful. We had really fun teambuilding games, and a survival skills thingy which included having to build a shelter, cook rice, cook tea, cook roti lilit, make weapons, make traps, make fire and bunch of other stuff, made fun by our own people. It was the only activity I think was worth my time, and where the facillitators were actually confident in carrying out. Other than that, it was more pointless activities to kill time. One thing I learn in this camp is to have good public speaking skills by crapping all the good values in every single situation. And apparantly, that makes you a good leader.

Then was the TalentTime. And they only informed us about the task like, 2-3 hours before the actual thing. 15 minutes before the actual thing, they give us a song and ask us to do a performance to it. Aweeeesooooome. Yes, we are supposed to act to the situation, but this is just rubbish. We came up with a random sketch, including a homosexual king and a bisexual king. Although it was a rushed thing with little effort put into it, next to all the other sketches and performances, ours actually looks rather good. Then was the dance. We were given this random dandut song that only 2 people in our group heard before. None of us were familiar. We danced to it anyway. Oh wait, correction. Only 3 or 4 of us actually danced. Despite whatever we planned, and even when I asked everyone to just dance whatever, NO ONE DID. Honestly, I was rather pissed off. But that's just me. :X

We ended at 1.30am. Not before we got punished because some people slept during the programs. I don't mind it, but I hate how the facillitators speak and explain the situation. They sound so high and mighty, as if we're just kids who can be bullied. Footeh them!

Day 3. Nothing much happened. Except that we sang the School Song so loud, I guess Datin was rather happy, haha. Owh, and during a free comment session, I gave my very honest comments about the camp, I hopes that they would take it in and realize the horrible job they are doing, and hopefully make some changes. What did they do? They ignored me, completely. They didn't even say thank you! In the end, I went home, the same person I was when I went into camp.

All in all, the RM45 was only worth the food the canteen provided us over the three days. But then again, they fed us curry chicken EVERY MEAL(just variations of em), and supplied us with a good variation of drinks, but they were meant to give us diabetes. Honestly, the tea and syrup and everything was suuuuuper sweet. My second camp at school, and both times I fall sick. I suspect the canteen food...

Suzanne Yin wasted herself at the Pemimpin Muda camp. The peeps were awesome, but camp organization was buhleeeeh. =/

For a camp that was terrible, I typed about it more than its worth, haha. I missed the TQ session right after TDC and TDC meeting to discuss reunion for this camp. Meh.

Will blog about Koperasi week with tons of photos soon. I'm kinda busy at the moment. =D

Quote of the Day: "I thought I saw a pussy cat." - Tweety, Loony Toons.

Thursday, June 18, 2009

Killing Time

Teen Dhamma Camp 11 was the BOMB!

To all those who didn't make it, you shall cry nao. Repent for the fun you miss! I don't have any pictures with me at the moment, so I won't blog much about it. One thing is, I was running four flights of stairs all day, hiding in a corner staring at a laptop, and not sleeping at all on the last night. Yeah man! But one thing is, at Jing Loong Shan, we can't wear shorts, must keep noise level at minimum, and the halls are so far apart from each other. Lesson: Don't go back to any temple which ends with "shan". Another example is Fuo Guang Shan.

Shall blog more about Teen Dhamma Camp. :D To read about it from one of our satisfied participants, please visit Wei Herng's Blog.

After the camp, I had TONS of sleep debt to repay. Sunday itself, I knocked myself out for about 4 hours, and slept for another 6-7 hours at night. It went on until Wednesday, and I even sleep in class. Wahahahaha. Hey, there's nothing to do in school this week anyway. We're just getting our results. My Sejarah had a 40 marks plunge! Woohoo! I haven't failed yet, so I guess that's a good thing.

Right at this moment, I'm at the Taekwondo MSSD! I'm sitting at the corner with my sir's laptop, watching my Restaurant City, listening to The Show. Yay for his laptop! Or else, I'd be on my cross stitch for hours, which would be a killer. I'm chilling at the moment, because there's only 2 people in my catergory, which also means, I'll be either getting a silver or gold medal, WOOHOO!

Right now, I shall mind myself with Facebook. Shall blog soon. :D

Quote of the Day: "With you, I never sweat." - Jeff Foxworthy, Are You Smarter Than A Fifth Grader?

Wednesday, June 10, 2009

It's Time!

Teen Dhamma Camp is TOMORROW!!! ZOMGWTHSTFUBBQ!!! Time really flies. It's already June now, and my first week of mid-year holidays is over. And I haven't done much on my to-do list. Hmmm... Out of the whole list, I've only done a quarter of it.

And from my cosplay to-do list, I've only done one. But it was a good one! I was making a new candle for Road Kamelot. It's the one where Road uses to stab Allen's eye.

Road's Candles, made of.. candles

I use a lighter and heat the candle up and shape it while its hot. I made the sharp ones, then made a curvy one. I added red wax to the tip of my pointy candles to be the blood, instead of nail polish, which was used last year. Muahaha, is this not teh awesome? Hot wax hurts, but it is FUN! I start becoming abit of a pyromaniac and a wax-o-maniac. Seriously.

When you just have to camwhore

Can't wait to do Road Kamelot again. :3

I'll hopefully be going to Animangaki, which is the next cosplay convention(as I'll be at camp for both Daicon and Cosfest[which is at Singapore, and TOTALLY unreachable]) being held at Sunway University! I shall be reprising my role as Yuffie Kisaragi, accompanied by teh awesome Nurul Nadhirah as Tifa Lockhart. The only thing I need now is a Yuffie wig...

I have also decided that I shall be cosplaying Seychelles from Hetalia, woohoo!

Also, on a side note, I am now on Maxis post-paid! WOOHOO! The only bad thing about this is I'm starting to abuse it a little too much... .___.

I'm going for the Taekwondo MSSD next week too! I shall do my best to get a medal, muahahaha.

Alright, I have no idea what to type. See me after camp!

Quote of the Day:
"In olden days a glimpse of stocking
Was looked on as something shocking
But now, Heaven knows,
Anything goes."
- Cole Porter.

Sunday, June 07, 2009

Then and Now

I've always been a really ambitious person. I had lots of things I want to achieve, lots of things I want to do. I didn't want to leave high school with regret. I wanted to leave a legacy.

Things now are just so different than before.

I was form 2 when I started everything. I organized my first camp with my Kalyana Mitras, I joined the Green Club, I learnt to speak up and think more considerately, my first cosplay was in 2007 too. I started joining activities and became active in them. I was spending all my Sundays at the temple. Even in class, all of us were so close that school was really enjoyable. I was really happy. 2007 held lots of great memories and many sweet beginnings.

Then came 2008. My commitments grew larger. I got involved in more activities. It came to the point where people actually start asking me to stop being so active. Sometimes there's just so much things to do it becomes a burden. But I'm still the happiest when all goes well.

This year's just weird. And agonizing. First I was in 4 Bakti, away from most of my closer friends. Then there was all the favouritism between the teachers that just makes me mad. I'm not a public speaker in Gavel Club without due cause. Yet, it just takes them forever to realize that I exist. 4 years already, and I'm still invisible to them. I've put in so much into everything I did. Yet, those who I hoped would notice never did.

Anthea asked me not to blog about it, but it's shouting at me. My Facebook status on 28 May says:

Suzanne Yin is darn pissed off, disappointed and unappreciated.

I know that we shouldn't do things for the fame or name. But sometimes, it's comforting to know that people appreciate the hard work you're giving, and hope that they would acknowledge you. I've been committed to this since 14 January 2007. I wanted to give my all, and I had a vision I was probably the only person in the whole school who wanted my name to be on that brown plaque sitting on the wall near the office area. I wanted it so badly. And honestly, it's just mind boggling that they just have to crush the most enthusiastic person and elect someone less enthusiastic just so they can make that person be more committed to their job. It has been the trend for years now. Is it necessary to do that to make a board? I don't have the charisma as my previous senior did to fight back. All I could do is just shut up and keep it in. Talking about it would make me sound so full of myself. Not talking about it eats me inside.

And on that Friday, Facebook says this:

Suzanne Yin had her 3 years dream crushed, and is confused whether to be sad, mad, or swallow it down like a (wo)man.

It's so hard to be selfish when it comes down to things like this. It's hard to say "I should've gotten this in return" when we're in it to give. I admit that I wanted to be recognize, but all in all I love being around these people, that's why I even bothered to give back. I truly care for them. But sometimes there are certain dreams I want to achieve. I let go another chance given to me just so I can put more time into this. But it seems like it didn't work. I really was a 3 year dream. I never wanted something so badly before, and thought that I really deserved it, and not get it. To make things worst, I didn't lose it to a stranger, or just another familiar face. I'm used to being second best, and I don't mind being second best to this person, but this is just too hard to swallow when you want it that badly. Sunday didn't make things any better. I'm left even more confused and messed up. I don't know what to think or do anymore.

Back then, there was less to fuss about, less to stress about. I wished things was more simpler now.

At least, I have a few things to keep me back on track, to remind me why I even got myself into all this mess. I took a flip through the pictures and videos of camp with my Kalyana Mitras. I guess some things are just worth it.

...I need to organize my thoughts. Again.

Quote of the Day: "I used to always cry and give up...I nearly went the wrong way...but showed me the right way...I was always chasing you...wanting to overtake you...I just wanted to walk with you...I wanted to be with changed me! Your smile saved me!" - Hinata Hyuuga, Naruto.
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